Wishing and praying... Pleading with someone who wasn't there.. "make it stop make it stop". Her eyes were red. How long had she been crying? 2 hours? 3 hours? She didn't know. Tears were freezing on her cheeks. She got closer to the candle. The shining candle was the only proof that somebody was living in that shack. She heard a cough behind her, then a sound of movement. Her mother should have been turning backwards in bed. At least that was showing her mother was still alive. However Alisa knew that she will have gone soon. The illness was spreading amongst her cells and made her worse day by day. She got up and hold the candle, then glide towards the bed and placed it next to it. There was only one bed in the tiny shack. Alisa had been sleeping on the rotten floors for 2 years, since her mother got sick. She looked down her mom with pity and misery. Her pale face was paler compared to yesterday. How long had she had? A day? A month? Tears started falling on her cheeks again. "Please" she wispered to the darkness, "have mercy..." Everything had started 5 years ago. Alisa had had a good family; a father who doted on her and a mother who loved her more than anything. Her father was a fisherman. He had a boat with a crew. He had earned well. At least he had earned enough to get fresh food to the table everyday. When Alisa was just 7, he had an accident and passed away. To go on with the life was no different from being tortured. They had no money at all. Alisa's mother had to take care of his daughter. She had worked as maid for nearly 3 years till she got sick. They moved into a filthy, neglected and tiny shack. Their life was never like it used to be. Alisa had fallen asleep with a wide smile, thinking of her dad and games they had played with... When she woke up, everything was the same, it was no like her dream. Her mother was asleep, Alisa checked her breathing, thanks to god she was still alive. She hold the lighting candle and take it with herself to the other side of the room, it was so dark because there was no window. Alisa put the candle on to the rotten counter. She took the rusty knife and tried to cut off the moldy bread, which was as hard as a boulder, with awkward hands. Suddenly she pulled her hand with agony. She had cut her hand. When she put her finger to the cut on her hand, she saw it out of the corner of her eye: the candle had been put out. She didn't know how to say but she knew that something was terribly wrong. She turned to her mom with a sudden move and saw her body moved no more. Alisa approached her body like a sleepwalker. She stopped right infront of her. Her eyes gazed her mother's white face. Then she started to cry like mad, screaming and yelling, yelling, yelling...
Şampiyonuz uleeeeeeeeeeeee :D:D Cimbomum yine sevindirdi bizi! Ezik fb de çıldırsın artık kıskançlıktan! Çıldırııın çıldırııın çıldırııın çıldırıınn aslanlar sahadaaa tribünler ayaktaaaa sarı kırmızıylaa hiç bitmez bu sevdaa!!! Öyle milyon dolarlık futbolcu almakla olmuyor bu şampiyonluk. Önce ruh olması lazım. Takımın kenetlenmesi lazım. İşte galatasarayımda bu var. Fenerde şimdiye kadar hiç olmadı böyle bir şey. SOnuç olarak şampiyonluğu biz hak etmiştik, bizim de oldu zaten.
Elle kolla değil bilekle Parayla pulla değil yürekle
When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse
Bazen ne yapsanız da olmuyor. Eskisi gibi olması için çabalıyorsun; ama o kıvılcımı geri getiremiyorsun. Ayrılmaktan başka çare kalmıyor malesef...
And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse?
Sabahlara kadar ağlamanın bir çözüm getirmeyeceğini bilmek ne acı değil mi? O artık yok hayatında... Olmayacak da bir daha... Kaybettin artık onu, gitti sonsuza kadar. O senin her şeyindi, hayatındı... Yaşama sebebindi, umudundu... Onunla birlikte her şey gitti, hepsi bitti, yok oldu. Kalbinin sıkışması, nefes alamamak...Bundan kötüsü var mıdır ki?..
Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth
Çok aşık olduğunda, karşındakini bırakamadığında, ondan vazgeçmek zorunda olmak.. Ölüm bu olsa gerek...
Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down on your face And I...
Hayır işte öğrenemiyorsun hatalarından bazen... Ağlamaktan başka şey gelmiyor elden...
